Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Reminiscing
As I was working on tying 120 tags on 120 mason jars today, a song came to mind that I haven't thought about in a long time. I used to listen to this song over and over again, dreaming about the day that it would actually be true.
This was one of our very first pictures together before we started dating. 
I've been waiting all my life for this morning
Just to wake up next to you holding me
And your head is resting gently on my shoulder
Like you're whispering to me
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
So glad I found you, I'm in love with you.
And suddenly the realization set in... My dreams are coming true. In 12 short days, I will be able to wake up next to my best friend.
No more sleeping alone at night.
No more being alone. ever.
I. am. so. happy.
Sometimes I can be a very negative person. Those of us who have been through Be Transformedknow exactly what I am talking about. It's just so easy for me to remember the bad times and to focus on negative aspects of life rather than the positive. However, as that one day draws closer, I can't help but feel giddy with excitement.
I've been dreaming of this day in specific since my freshman year of college. Sure, I was like every little girl who dreamed about getting married, but since my first year of college, I have dreamed about marrying Teaven. Those of you who knew me during that time were probably completely used to the phrase, "I just want to get married." Well, folks, here it is. In 11 short days, that dream will be coming true. I'm finally getting married.
I've been going through some old pictures of Teaven and I to use at the wedding, so I thought it'd be fun to post some on here.
This was one of our very first pictures together before we started dating. Teaven's senior prom.
All of those are from our first year of dating. My senior year of high school, and Teaven's freshman year at UMHB.
Love is joy and love is pain
It's kissing in the rain
It's doing dishes when it's late,
Isn't it, baby?
It's the art of compromise
It's hellos and long goodbyes
It's the picture of our lives
Isn't it crazy?
Monday, June 6, 2011
Refocus
Fans. Check.
Tags. Check.
Candy Bags. Check.
12 days. Well, actually it's 11 days and 21 hours.
I know that all I've talked about lately is the wedding, but that has been my life lately.
I've marked so many things off my to-do list, and I'm so proud of myself.
I've been realizing how easy it is to let my time with God be minimized in order to get everything done, and I really need to work on that. I am so focused on not forgetting something, but in all reality I'm forgetting the most important thing, the one thing that will carry me through this marriage.
I need to refocus and take a deeper look into myself as I prepare for this huge step. It's not just a party that I'm planning; it's the beginning of my future. A commitment to another person that I will never leave him, no matter how rocky the road gets. Thank God I've got a Savior whose grace never runs out.
Tomorrow is my refocus day, so that I may not forget what life is really about. It's not about fans or tags or candy. It's about furthering his kingdom, through my marriage and through my life.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
I miss you
Teaven left for camp this morning, and this whole week I've been thinking to myself that it will be nice to have some time away from each other before the wedding. I can relax and enjoy myself.
Hah. Who was I kidding? I barely made it 4 hours without missing him.
Last night he asked me why I would miss him, and I told him because he is my friend. And that is so true. He's my best friend, and we can sit and talk for hours about anything and everything.. or even just sit in companionable silence, content to just enjoy each other's presence.
I thought I was going to have to keep busy next week because I'd be so anxious about the wedding. I think this week will be worse if the days pass as slowly as they have today. Thankfully, I have a lot of things to get done and a lot of people to see.
This week will be full of tanning, shopping, crafting, visiting, more shopping, planning, and trying to remember all the things I forgot to do.
But the best part of all... are you ready for this? Teaven told me last night that I should go get a massage sometime this week. Now, to some of you, that may not seem like a big deal at all, but it's huge! Teaven doesn't really like me getting massages by people other than him, but he told me to get one...as long as a girl does it! I swear that's one of the sweetest things he's done in a while because I know how much it meant for him to do that.
So added to my list of things to do: get a massage!
6 days til he gets home!
10 days til family gets here!
13 days until the wedding!
Friday, June 3, 2011
A Summer Beginning...
Today my summer officially begins!
From here on out, I will spend my days sleeping in (well, as late as my body will let me these days) and drown myself in wedding details and final touches. Okay, maybe drown isn't the right word because I actually do enjoy doing most of the things I have to finish.
Family and friends start arriving in 11 days!! I can't wait for everyone to get here and the festivities begin. I'm going to blink and everyone will be here. Time is moving so quickly these days. Well, minus the slowly moving clock as I anxiously await my boss to give me my check and say go home. I'm leaving early today because Teaven and I are going to get our marriage license. I think the excitement from that makes time appear to move slower.
Teaven and I will be starting a new blog in the next couple of weeks... Ok, maybe I should say in the next month. It'll be all about our adventures to Korea and other places (hopefully!). From what I hear, it's pretty cheap to fly from Korea to Australia... and lucky for us, Teaven's grandparents live in Australia. hmm. Can you say possibility?
From here on out, I will spend my days sleeping in (well, as late as my body will let me these days) and drown myself in wedding details and final touches. Okay, maybe drown isn't the right word because I actually do enjoy doing most of the things I have to finish.
Family and friends start arriving in 11 days!! I can't wait for everyone to get here and the festivities begin. I'm going to blink and everyone will be here. Time is moving so quickly these days. Well, minus the slowly moving clock as I anxiously await my boss to give me my check and say go home. I'm leaving early today because Teaven and I are going to get our marriage license. I think the excitement from that makes time appear to move slower.
Teaven and I will be starting a new blog in the next couple of weeks... Ok, maybe I should say in the next month. It'll be all about our adventures to Korea and other places (hopefully!). From what I hear, it's pretty cheap to fly from Korea to Australia... and lucky for us, Teaven's grandparents live in Australia. hmm. Can you say possibility?
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Love Never Fails
I know I just wrote a blog about 2 minutes ago, but this came to my mind.
Until recently, I had never experienced the hurt and pain caused from a failed marriage. It all began when I found out that my brother and sister-in-law, who I loved like a real sister, were getting a divorce. I remember being so angry and hurt that she would leave me and frustrated that they couldn't work things out. From there, I saw so many people giving up on their marriage. The world basically tells us to run when it gets too hard.
Then, the other day, I was watching Dr. Phil, and it was an episode titled, "My Mate Isn't Good Enough." I watched these people complain about how their significant other isn't attractive anymore or they are embarrassed to be seen with them in public. I kept thinking to myself that these people are so superficial. The sad thing is that people really think this way. Last week, we found out that Teaven's brother is getting a divorce. Apparently, his wife said she wasn't attracted to him anymore so that was enough reason to run out on a marriage. Then, this morning I heard this lady talking on the Today Show about a book she wrote about marriage. She said that most people would cheat on their spouse if no one found out. She continued to say that NO marriage will stay blissful, and only 60% of married couples say their marriage is semi-happy. What the heck?
With society the way it is, it's hard not to be a little scared about the future. I had my little freak out moment a couple of days ago where I realized that I am marrying Teaven and this is a true lifetime commitment. I won't have any privacy anymore. I won't be able to sneak a bowl of cereal before I go to bed without him knowing. I never want anything to hurt our marriage so bad that I feel like running. I know the honeymoon phase will end, and I know there are challenges to come. But I also know that we are going to defy the world's view of marriage. I never want to lose my passion and love for Teaven. People need to realize that marriage isn't just about attraction.
With Christ at the center, we will have a happy, blissful marriage. Come what may, my love will not waiver.
Until recently, I had never experienced the hurt and pain caused from a failed marriage. It all began when I found out that my brother and sister-in-law, who I loved like a real sister, were getting a divorce. I remember being so angry and hurt that she would leave me and frustrated that they couldn't work things out. From there, I saw so many people giving up on their marriage. The world basically tells us to run when it gets too hard.
Then, the other day, I was watching Dr. Phil, and it was an episode titled, "My Mate Isn't Good Enough." I watched these people complain about how their significant other isn't attractive anymore or they are embarrassed to be seen with them in public. I kept thinking to myself that these people are so superficial. The sad thing is that people really think this way. Last week, we found out that Teaven's brother is getting a divorce. Apparently, his wife said she wasn't attracted to him anymore so that was enough reason to run out on a marriage. Then, this morning I heard this lady talking on the Today Show about a book she wrote about marriage. She said that most people would cheat on their spouse if no one found out. She continued to say that NO marriage will stay blissful, and only 60% of married couples say their marriage is semi-happy. What the heck?
With society the way it is, it's hard not to be a little scared about the future. I had my little freak out moment a couple of days ago where I realized that I am marrying Teaven and this is a true lifetime commitment. I won't have any privacy anymore. I won't be able to sneak a bowl of cereal before I go to bed without him knowing. I never want anything to hurt our marriage so bad that I feel like running. I know the honeymoon phase will end, and I know there are challenges to come. But I also know that we are going to defy the world's view of marriage. I never want to lose my passion and love for Teaven. People need to realize that marriage isn't just about attraction.
With Christ at the center, we will have a happy, blissful marriage. Come what may, my love will not waiver.
Crunch Time
I haven't been able to blog in quite some time because I don't have a computer with internet access anymore, and it's difficult to type a blog on my iPhone. Anyways, I felt the itch to do something about that today, so here I sit at the computer where I work.
18 days until I get married! It's so crazy to think that 2 weeks from now I will be preparing all the final touches for the wedding of my dreams. I am so happy that Teaven never let me settle when it came to wedding planning. I know that he may seem like a Bridezilla to some, but I know he is only doing it for me. He knows that I am too wussy to say what I really want for fear that we won't have the money. Thanks to him and our family, I know our wedding is going to be gorgeous. I seriously cannot wait.
It's funny to think that just last week I told myself the wedding was far enough away that I could put things off, and now I'm freaking out about getting everything done. There's so many little details that I always forget when creating my 5 billion lists.
A couple of days ago, Teaven and I were going through some old letters and pictures from our first years of dating and laughing so hard at how cheesy we were. I always wanted to sound perfect, and he wanted to impress me. To this day, it still amazes me how far we've come. I never thought I could love a person as much as I love him. He's going to camp next week, and that will be our last week apart for a VERY long time.
We are going to get our marriage license on Friday. He leaves on Sunday. Family and friends begin to arrive 2 weeks from today. I'm crazy excited.
18 days until I get married! It's so crazy to think that 2 weeks from now I will be preparing all the final touches for the wedding of my dreams. I am so happy that Teaven never let me settle when it came to wedding planning. I know that he may seem like a Bridezilla to some, but I know he is only doing it for me. He knows that I am too wussy to say what I really want for fear that we won't have the money. Thanks to him and our family, I know our wedding is going to be gorgeous. I seriously cannot wait.
It's funny to think that just last week I told myself the wedding was far enough away that I could put things off, and now I'm freaking out about getting everything done. There's so many little details that I always forget when creating my 5 billion lists.
A couple of days ago, Teaven and I were going through some old letters and pictures from our first years of dating and laughing so hard at how cheesy we were. I always wanted to sound perfect, and he wanted to impress me. To this day, it still amazes me how far we've come. I never thought I could love a person as much as I love him. He's going to camp next week, and that will be our last week apart for a VERY long time.
We are going to get our marriage license on Friday. He leaves on Sunday. Family and friends begin to arrive 2 weeks from today. I'm crazy excited.
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