Peace

I don't like drama, and I don't like conflict. I have always tried to fix problems when they arise. I want everyone to be happy. I feel this comes from the fact that I am a middle child, the peacemaker. I've been engaged for one week, and I could not be happier. I am thrilled for the day that I can walk down that aisle and promise to love Teaven always. I am excited about this new adventure we have ahead of us. I wouldn't change anything about it if I could.

It is hard for me to not take problems on my shoulders and not to think that I somehow caused them. I'm fighting a lot of things in my mind right now. I want to be so angry that she would even think to take this away from Teaven. He is graduating college! That's a huge accomplishment and should definitely be recognized and praised. I want to be angry that she wants to steal my thunder now... that she would take this away from me in order for her to be happy.

However, I am happy. Yes, I enjoy the excitement. Yes, I enjoy the attention. But at the end of the day, even without all of that, I can say that I am going to marry the most amazing man I have ever met. I can be by his side to celebrate his accomplishments. I don't need anything else. Sure, in my picture perfect world, everyone is happy, and we are able to celebrate without having any conflicts. Unfortunately, life isn't like that. If there wasn't conflict, then there wouldn't be any opportunity for us to grow.

Therefore, I will pray. I will take this as an oppurtunity for my actions and my words to reflect those of Christ. I will continue to strive to be the best person I can be. I will support him, and I will celebrate my engagement. I'm happy. I'm blessed. I'm at peace.

Proposal

This post is dedicated to:

wait for it.......

this gorgeous ring on my left hand. :)

As you all know, Teaven proposed last night. I am still in a slight state of shock. It's really amazing to me how God surprises us. The night before he proposed, I was praying that God would help me to be patient because sometimes I just get so excited to marry him someday. I think my exact words were, "Please help me to be patient. Our time will come." Little did I know that the next night I'd be taking off a blindfold to see the man I love on one knee. It's such an amazing feeling. I hope this excitement never wears off.

I just want to thank all of you for being there and being so excited with us! I've realized even more what special people God has placed in our lives. I love you all so much!

That's all for now. My prayer is for continued patience as I approach this new journey.

Realization

Whoo! It's been a crazy last couple of weeks. I feel like this semester is a time for people to learn about themselves. I am learning a great amount of information pertaining to the way I act and respond to different situations, my feelings and how to control them. I also hear from my friends how much they are learning about their beliefs and dreams. Honestly, it's exhausting knowing that this point will come in my life at a constant pace. Sometimes I wonder why I have to keep learning things over and over again. Human nature. Well, it's an interesting process, and I am amazed to see how much better my relationships are with people.

Over the weekend I went camping. It was surprisingly a very relaxing trip. I had so much fun talking and having fun with friends. I really think that this trip helped strengthen my relationship with a few people. I wish I could do stuff like that all the time. So fun.

I am starting Project 365. We'll see how long I can keep it up.