Disappointment

I thought for a day that it would be possible for Teaven and I to get married. I told myself not to get too excited because I still had a lot to work out. Unfortunately, I got excited. I realized that I could be getting married in 6 short months, less than 200 days. Then, today I allowed myself to accept the fact that it's just not going to happen. There are too many factors working against us. Although I was quite disappointed, I knew it just wasn't meant to be for us. As hard as it is right now to wait and be patient, I know it will all be worth it in the end. I won't have any regrets, and I will be the happiest woman on the planet. We've waited so long already, what's another 6 months right?

I just want to marry him. I want to be able to talk late into the night and fall asleep right next to him. I don't want to have to talk to him on the phone anymore. For those of you who don't know, we're not good at long distance stuff... and Killeen isn't even that far from Belton.

However, I will be happy for every moment I have with him this summer. I will be happy to be spending my senior year at school. I will be happy that God has placed such an amazing man in my life.

One year isn't too long right?

Engagements

I started to write this really long post about how long engagements are really hard, but I need to stop. I know that God's timing is perfect for Teaven and me, but sometimes it's just really hard to wait. It's hard to watch people who got engaged after I did talk about how they have less than 100 days left when I'm still in the 400s. I keep telling myself that this next year is going to fly by, but it's honestly hard to be patient.

However, I am thankful for the choices we have made. I am thankful that we have decided to wait until I graduate, and Teaven, Lord willing, has a steady job. I know we won't regret it in the long run, but for those who know me, I'm not good with waiting. I want things to happen now. However, I have to wait and make this year the best year it can be.

It will be good.

My senior year of college... I never dreamed I'd actually make it this far.
My last year living so close to all of my friends.
My last year as an RA, which has come with some of the best friends and memories ever.
My last year to live alone... without a boy. haha.
Lots of time with some of my best friends due to wedding planning. :)

Next year this time, I'll be walking across that stage and receiving my diploma. I'll have to start looking for a real job, no more Olive Garden. :)

It'll be grand, and let me tell you, being engaged is a wonderful thing. It has brought more learning and growing than I ever imagined, and I love that boy more everyday.