Things change when you get engaged. Not only are you obligated to be at your family's house for Christmas, but you have to be at your future family's house at well. Some people cringe at the thought of going to their in-laws, but I get excited. I love them and have been warmly accepted into this new family. They love and treat me as if I were their own daughter, and I can't thank God enough for that. I know that the wedding is still a year and a half away, but they're my family now.
Teaven and I decided to go to Oklahoma to visit his sister and her family as well as his mom. We're leaving on Christmas night, and when I told my little sister, she erupted with anger. "I don't see why you have to leave on Christmas... I can't believe you'd choose your boyfriend over your family." I can relate to how she is feeling. The night after my older sister got married, I cried myself to sleep because I felt like I was losing her forever. It's not easy to accept this change, especially when you don't understand it.
Sometimes I just wish she knew how much I love her. Sometimes I just wish she knew how much I care. I don't know how to show her.
Maybe in time.
