Reminiscing

As I was working on tying 120 tags on 120 mason jars today, a song came to mind that I haven't thought about in a long time. I used to listen to this song over and over again, dreaming about the day that it would actually be true.

I've been waiting all my life for this morning

Just to wake up next to you holding me

And your head is resting gently on my shoulder

Like you're whispering to me

I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you

So glad I found you, I'm in love with you.

And suddenly the realization set in... My dreams are coming true. In 12 short days, I will be able to wake up next to my best friend.

No more sleeping alone at night.

No more being alone. ever.

I. am. so. happy.

Sometimes I can be a very negative person. Those of us who have been through Be Transformedknow exactly what I am talking about. It's just so easy for me to remember the bad times and to focus on negative aspects of life rather than the positive. However, as that one day draws closer, I can't help but feel giddy with excitement.

I've been dreaming of this day in specific since my freshman year of college. Sure, I was like every little girl who dreamed about getting married, but since my first year of college, I have dreamed about marrying Teaven. Those of you who knew me during that time were probably completely used to the phrase, "I just want to get married." Well, folks, here it is. In 11 short days, that dream will be coming true. I'm finally getting married.

I've been going through some old pictures of Teaven and I to use at the wedding, so I thought it'd be fun to post some on here.

This was one of our very first pictures together before we started dating.

Teaven's senior prom.

Summer of '06... Summer Fun with the youth group.

All of those are from our first year of dating. My senior year of high school, and Teaven's freshman year at UMHB.

Love is joy and love is pain

It's kissing in the rain

It's doing dishes when it's late,

Isn't it, baby?

It's the art of compromise

It's hellos and long goodbyes

It's the picture of our lives

Isn't it crazy?

Refocus

Fans. Check.

Tags. Check.

Candy Bags. Check.

12 days. Well, actually it's 11 days and 21 hours.

I know that all I've talked about lately is the wedding, but that has been my life lately.

I've marked so many things off my to-do list, and I'm so proud of myself.

I've been realizing how easy it is to let my time with God be minimized in order to get everything done, and I really need to work on that. I am so focused on not forgetting something, but in all reality I'm forgetting the most important thing, the one thing that will carry me through this marriage.

I need to refocus and take a deeper look into myself as I prepare for this huge step. It's not just a party that I'm planning; it's the beginning of my future. A commitment to another person that I will never leave him, no matter how rocky the road gets. Thank God I've got a Savior whose grace never runs out.

Tomorrow is my refocus day, so that I may not forget what life is really about. It's not about fans or tags or candy. It's about furthering his kingdom, through my marriage and through my life.

I miss you

Teaven left for camp this morning, and this whole week I've been thinking to myself that it will be nice to have some time away from each other before the wedding. I can relax and enjoy myself.

Hah. Who was I kidding? I barely made it 4 hours without missing him.

Last night he asked me why I would miss him, and I told him because he is my friend. And that is so true. He's my best friend, and we can sit and talk for hours about anything and everything.. or even just sit in companionable silence, content to just enjoy each other's presence.

I thought I was going to have to keep busy next week because I'd be so anxious about the wedding. I think this week will be worse if the days pass as slowly as they have today. Thankfully, I have a lot of things to get done and a lot of people to see.

This week will be full of tanning, shopping, crafting, visiting, more shopping, planning, and trying to remember all the things I forgot to do.

But the best part of all... are you ready for this? Teaven told me last night that I should go get a massage sometime this week. Now, to some of you, that may not seem like a big deal at all, but it's huge! Teaven doesn't really like me getting massages by people other than him, but he told me to get one...as long as a girl does it! I swear that's one of the sweetest things he's done in a while because I know how much it meant for him to do that.

So added to my list of things to do: get a massage!

6 days til he gets home!

10 days til family gets here!

13 days until the wedding!

A Summer Beginning...

Today my summer officially begins!

From here on out, I will spend my days sleeping in (well, as late as my body will let me these days) and drown myself in wedding details and final touches. Okay, maybe drown isn't the right word because I actually do enjoy doing most of the things I have to finish.

Family and friends start arriving in 11 days!! I can't wait for everyone to get here and the festivities begin. I'm going to blink and everyone will be here. Time is moving so quickly these days. Well, minus the slowly moving clock as I anxiously await my boss to give me my check and say go home. I'm leaving early today because Teaven and I are going to get our marriage license. I think the excitement from that makes time appear to move slower.

Teaven and I will be starting a new blog in the next couple of weeks... Ok, maybe I should say in the next month. It'll be all about our adventures to Korea and other places (hopefully!). From what I hear, it's pretty cheap to fly from Korea to Australia... and lucky for us, Teaven's grandparents live in Australia. hmm. Can you say possibility?