Fears, Tears, and First Impressions

Oh man, how do I even begin to describe how crazy the last couple of weeks has been? RA training was exhausting, but I honestly had a lot of fun. I'm glad it's over though. God has put together such an amazing group this year, and I'm so excited to get to know each of these girls better. Being head RA has its tough moments, but it's been good so far.

I love freshmen. These girls are so fresh and excited about the new year. I think my opinion of what an RA is has changed so much since sophomore year. I'm much more relaxed with the rules. This year, I long to be relational. If I change my attitude, I know I'll make such a bigger impact. I've got to start from the beginning though. Their first impression of me will set the tone for the rest of the semester.

I still haven't gotten a job. I've been discouraged, but I know God has a reason for this, even though I may not see it yet. I'm just focusing on placing my trust in him as I continue to look for other positions.

Part of me is ready for school to start... ready for it to be over with.. Another part of me just wants to keep putting it off. I don't want to start school and homework and papers and tests. It's my last semester though, which makes my motivation much higher.

Moving back

I can't believe I move back to school in a week. Where has this summer gone? It's bittersweet thinking about moving back. I'm so excited to get back to school and be surrounded by some wonderful people. I'm excited about dinner and coffee dates, RA meetings, and freshmen. I'm excited that it's my last semester of real classes. However, I'm not excited to live away from Teaven again. It's been so nice having him here with me all summer and going back to only phone communication will be difficult. BUT, in less than a year, I won't ever have to live away from him again. That is exciting!

I may be quitting my job at Olive Garden. They told me that I had to work 3 days a week, and I just don't want to do that with my schoool load and RA stuff. I've been emailing families trying to find some babysitting jobs, and so far, I've come up with 2 great ones. If I do land these jobs, I'll probably quit. It's kind of crazy to think about because I didn't think it would happen this soon.

I'm still working through my insecurity issues. Honestly, though, I haven't been spending as much time in reflection as I should. I'll post more about that at another time.