Caramel

This post is dedicated to: Starbucks Caramel. :)

I love it. It's basically the only reason I go to Starbucks.

Yesterday, Teaven and I had our first experience at Genghis Grill. The waitress came up to greet us and startled Teaven. It was quite funny. Then, she chose to sit down and explain how the process worked since we had never been before. She gathered our drink order and left the table. At that moment, Teaven looked at me and said, "I'm still confused." So was I. We looked over the menu one last time before stepping into line where we would be faced with tons of decisions. Chicken? Steak? Shrimp? Yes, please. Spices? Veggies? Sauce? I was nervous it was going to taste awful. We sat down and anxiously awaited for our food to arrive. First bite, delicious. Second bite, wonderful. Success in a bowl! It was interesting to me the differences in flavors between my dish and Teaven's. I liked mine better.

After that, we went to Barnes and Noble to kill time because the movie we wanted to see didn't start for another two and a half hours. I searched that store for Hinds Feet in High Places, but it was nowhere to be found. They said they had four copies, but no one could find a single one. It was strange and disappointing. Then, we went to my house to pick up some things I wanted. On our way there, I was getting grumpy because I really didn't feel like going to a movie, but I was willing to do it if it meant I got more time with Teaven. I didn't want to tell him how I was really feeling, but, of course, he could tell something was wrong. I finally mustered up the nerve to tell him I just felt like going back to him apartment and watching a movie. He told me that I just need to be honest with him. Everything turned out great. We went to Walmart, and he bought me season 10 of friends. Then, we went back to his house and watched the whole first disc. It was lovely.

I drove his car home since it was so late when I left. While I was driving back, he called me and told me there was a surprise in his backseat. Let me tell, you it was the most romantic and wonderful thing he has ever done. :)

Anyways, enough about Teaven. I am currently putting together a playlist of songs for Katie's reception. It's quite exciting.

Today, I honestly did nothing. It was so nice, but I don't like being judged for my actions. Sometimes, I feel that way in my apartment. It makes me tense, and I feel pressured to act a certain way or to hide the way I do act. I know this is wrong, and I should just let people deal with it on their own. I'm learning to deal with it. I'm learning to accept that I am the way I am, and I am not going to hide it just to please other people. It's not an easy task for me.