I don't like drama, and I don't like conflict. I have always tried to fix problems when they arise. I want everyone to be happy. I feel this comes from the fact that I am a middle child, the peacemaker. I've been engaged for one week, and I could not be happier. I am thrilled for the day that I can walk down that aisle and promise to love Teaven always. I am excited about this new adventure we have ahead of us. I wouldn't change anything about it if I could.
It is hard for me to not take problems on my shoulders and not to think that I somehow caused them. I'm fighting a lot of things in my mind right now. I want to be so angry that she would even think to take this away from Teaven. He is graduating college! That's a huge accomplishment and should definitely be recognized and praised. I want to be angry that she wants to steal my thunder now... that she would take this away from me in order for her to be happy.
However, I am happy. Yes, I enjoy the excitement. Yes, I enjoy the attention. But at the end of the day, even without all of that, I can say that I am going to marry the most amazing man I have ever met. I can be by his side to celebrate his accomplishments. I don't need anything else. Sure, in my picture perfect world, everyone is happy, and we are able to celebrate without having any conflicts. Unfortunately, life isn't like that. If there wasn't conflict, then there wouldn't be any opportunity for us to grow.
Therefore, I will pray. I will take this as an oppurtunity for my actions and my words to reflect those of Christ. I will continue to strive to be the best person I can be. I will support him, and I will celebrate my engagement. I'm happy. I'm blessed. I'm at peace.
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