Disappointment

I thought for a day that it would be possible for Teaven and I to get married. I told myself not to get too excited because I still had a lot to work out. Unfortunately, I got excited. I realized that I could be getting married in 6 short months, less than 200 days. Then, today I allowed myself to accept the fact that it's just not going to happen. There are too many factors working against us. Although I was quite disappointed, I knew it just wasn't meant to be for us. As hard as it is right now to wait and be patient, I know it will all be worth it in the end. I won't have any regrets, and I will be the happiest woman on the planet. We've waited so long already, what's another 6 months right?

I just want to marry him. I want to be able to talk late into the night and fall asleep right next to him. I don't want to have to talk to him on the phone anymore. For those of you who don't know, we're not good at long distance stuff... and Killeen isn't even that far from Belton.

However, I will be happy for every moment I have with him this summer. I will be happy to be spending my senior year at school. I will be happy that God has placed such an amazing man in my life.

One year isn't too long right?