Update

I feel like all of my blogs lately have been about my engagement. I'm sorry to my readers, but this is, yet again, about my engagement.

I need prayer.

I have been seriously worrying about where the money will come from for our wedding. I am not making nearly as much as I had hoped because it's been so slow, and I'm disappointed in myself. However, I've come to the realization that I can't do this. There's no way that's going to happen. That's a good place to be for me because I come to a place of complete surrender and reliance on God. So, friends, please pray that I remain in surrender and have trust. I know that whatever happens, I'm still marrying my best friend, and my marriage needs to be more of my focus than my wedding.

Teaven and I leave for Arkansas today. His mom is getting married there. We're both really tired, so I hope we get some rest... although, we will be sleeping on air mattresses in a house that may or may not have air conditioning. :/ I'm looking forward to it. I don't know what to expect, which is a good thing, I suppose, since my counselor always told me not to have any expectations.

Other than that, I don't really know what to say because I'm super tired. I'm surprised I even updated at all.

Farewell for now. :)