I stepped out of his car, grabbed my stuff from the trunk, and yelled, "I love you," over the loud music. As I walked towards the porch of my temporary home, I began to mentally list the things I needed to get done before I could go to sleep that night. I walked up the stairs and opened the glass door that led into an empty lobby. Suddenly, all of the stress that I had forgotten about over the weekend, pushed against me like an unseen rush of water. My thoughts became overwhelmed as I pictured all that lay before me. Tests, quizzes, papers, restless night, alarms, locked doors. All the things that came with being a student and an RA. I wanted to turn around and run towards the comfort of home. Why do I dread coming back to this place? I'm ready to be done. I'm ready to have my own home where I don't have to worry about whether or not I have updated my marker board or written 5 minute meetings. I want to have a classroom where I'm giving the tests instead of taking them.
I'm tired, and I know that will continue. I also know that God will give me the strength I need to persevere. He knew what he was doing when he laid that on my heart to be my prayer for the year. Perseverence. Even the weak will be made strong. "Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him" James 1:12
Back to my countdowns:
-5 days til I go to New Mexico
-66 days til my last final
-216 days til Graduation
-258 days til my wedding!!!!
p.s.
Can you tell I've been writing too much for Advanced Composition?
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