Thursday, March 31, 2011

Rambles from a love-struck heart

I've been wanting to write a blog for quite some time now, but every time I think about it, I get distracted doing something else. So much has happened in the past month that I don't even know where to begin. March has been a long month filled with so many wonderful things.

I suppose I will start with Spring Break. I went with Teaven and his youth group to Camp Eagle for three days to do a service project. During this time, I was filled with so much realization of who I had become in the last year or so, and honestly, I wasn't pleased. Seeing as how I hadn't been to camp since elementary school, this was an adventure for me. We took down a fence, sanded a mine, built new trails (which is surprisingly very difficult. Trails just don't appear, people), and cleared brush. At the end of each hard work day, we were able to play. The first day we swam in the river and the second day we went ziplining (so fun!). I loved every minute of it. I loved being around 30 teenagers and being able to impact their lives just as much as they impacted mine. I realized how much I had been living for myself instead of living for something greater than myself. My life recently has been so me, me, me focused that I fail to see the bigger picture. I could go on and on about this realization, but I will spare you. Let's just say, I'm excited for what God has in store for Teaven and me. It was so nice to work side by side furthering the Kingdom of God and knowing that's exactly what we will be doing for the rest of our lives. Our marriage isn't happening just because we love each other; it's happening because we glorify Christ better together than we do apart. And nothing will ever be able to change that.

On to other things, last weekend Teaven and I had our pre-marital counseling retreat. We went into the weekend with low expectations and bad attitudes. We didn't want to go.
Thankfully, we went. We both had so much fun and experienced life together in a way we hadn't before. It was so nice to be able to build community with other couples. We hadn't realized until then how important and beneficial it can be to have other couple friends. On the last night of the retreat, we received letters from our Spiritual Investors, people we had chosen to pray for our marriage. This was such a special time. I could already feel the tears welling up as we opened the first letter and began to read the words on the page. I never knew that such a simple act could be so intimate and special. We will treasure these letters throughout our lives together.

When I think about it, I am still amazed how far God has brought us in our relationship. We've gone from being two twitterpated teens to two adults ready to become one flesh, not just physically. It's crazy to think how much changes and how much God prepares you for marriage when you truly desire it. I never really understood how two people became one, but the concept is quickly becoming much more real to me. Just the thought of how special this time is brings tears to my eyes. I can't thank God enough for this relationship, and as I always tell Teaven, I hope we never forget these moments.

No matter where God takes us... Korea, Russia, or some small apartment in Killen... I know I'll be home wherever I am. I know it sounds cheesy but it's so. stinkin. true.

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